It's 5:30 on a Tuesday and I am already exhausted. Me and every other college kid around. I know we have all experienced that amazing phenomenon where all of you teachers give you tests in the exact same week! That's my week. It's like the all the professors think that the only class I am enrolled in is their class, not to mention they assume I have no life outside of course work... I am not a non-traditional student. I will get excited when you let me out of class early, and I won't complain that I'm not getting my full monies worth. I promise. I'll actually be tempted to give you a better review if this is the case.
I'm on my second cup of coffee, and there are a million other things I need to be doing right now, but I had to write this down, or my head was going to explode. I have been thinking about it all day, and while my thoughts are very scattered on it, there are a lot of things I feel very passionately about in relation to this.
Now on to my Diane Challenge for the day.
Post #6: November 9, 2010
I heard a really sad story last night. I don't really know that appropriate manner to share it, or if it's really appropriate at all to do so, but it really impacted me, and I have thought about it a lot today. We have a consultant for IH visiting us right now, and she found out yesturday one of her friends had passed away in his sleep the night before. He was very young, around 23 or 24 I am guessing, and was discovered by his wife. They had only been married for five months. As far as our consultant knew, they still didn't know why it had happened.
Cue me crying over someone I have never met.
This made me realize how truly important the people you spend your life with are, and how you should tell them everyday just how much they mean to you. Every. Single. Day. Because in all reality you never know when they're going to have to leave you. I am an expert on good-byes and changes, but I have never had to face anything quite like this situation, and hearing it made me realize: we're not untouchable or invincible. The people we love could leave us today, or tomorrow, or next week. We just don't know. Sometimes we get frustrated, and things get hard, but people remember the way you make them feel. Never forget to say "I love you" or "I miss you" or "I'm sorry" because you don't know when it could be the last, and you don't want to miss out on those opportunities.
So today, I am thankful that I am here, and safe and healthy. That I am surrounded by people who I love and who love me back. That I have the opportunity to fix relationships with people still, to say "I love you" and "I'm sorry". To hug my friends or to hold my boyfriends hand. To call my family and hear their voices. To continue to make plans for my future, because, even though I don't know what it holds, as of right now I sure as hell need a plan for it.
I am thankful to be here. To have the ability to feel and to learn and to grow. To have the ability to love and forgive no matter how openly. To be able to get hurt and heal, whether a broken heart or a fractured finger.. I still have the opportunity to fix it. To rebuild burnt bridges, or help someone in need.
These people and these relationships and our lives are all precious. More precious than any other the smaller things I talk about in here. This is the stuff that really matters. The stuff that makes our lives worth living, and our lives worth having things to be thankful for. So today, I am thankful for all of it. For my ability to be here and to type these words. And I am thankful I can still hear these stories and feel these things and have the opportunity to grow from them.
My thoughts go out to the family who lost their son, the wife who lost her husband after 5 short months of marriage, and to everyone who was touched by his life, and his story.
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